PROCRASINATION

I haven't been to efficient with my blog for the pass couple of months as that there is alot going on at the moment. College essays, applications, and grades are taking away my social life at the moment. I've been procrastinating and haven't even completely submitted my application for CUNY and haven't even started my application for TEMPLE. My head is everywhere and like your average teen I'm more focused on the now and right now in this moment, I've decided to think about the year ahead of me. I'm looking to change up my style a bit. I wanna go a lil more underground like graphic tees and things of that sort. I'm bored with my hair and might try something new. I've even been talking tattoos with one of my close friends. Again I am sidetracked and don't focus on the important things that come first and foremost. But can you blame me I'm seventeen years old. I can't talk about academics for to long it starts to bore me and I can't bore you guys with things that bore me. Anyway starting next month I'm going to start a next blog, not sure what the concept is going to be behind it but I know it's going to be more focused on music, arts and fashion and of course me. This blog is going to be more like a diary and something that gives you all a chance to understand me and who I am, more than anyting. I want a sense of my opinion on things to come across in my second blog. I'm working on the name and a real concept because I want to feel accomplished, once I'm finished writing each entry. See you in 20.10...LOVE!!!!!!

IMA NEED U 2 SAY SOMETHIN BABY SAY SOMETHIN SAY SOMETHIN

The BEGINNING OF MY COLLEGE ESSAY FOR NYU tell me what u think

   The lights go down, there’s a sudden silence. The murmurs stop and everyone awaits what happens next. “Let’s go NEW YORK!” Jay-z voice comes booming out of a speaker and his music soon after. “Yeah I’m up in Brooklyn/Now I’m down in Tribeca/Right next DeNiro/ But I’ll be hood forever/ I’m the new Sinatra/ And since I made it here/I can make it anywhere/Yeah they love me everywhere.” The crowd goes crazy, people’s lips moving as fast as their bodies but keeping up with his rhythum. It’s amazing being apart of the audience and being in his presence. But standing backstage is where it’s at. Watching him from the front row isn’t close enough. “How’s everybody doing tonight? Don’t worry if you not doing good, I’m going to make sure you good by the end of the night. Let’s go.” Another beat comes on and here comes Drake, one of hip-hops young ones. “Let show em’ what you can do baby boy.” Jay let’s Drake go off in a freestyle and then the music  comes up for the single they did for his new album. It’s not a concert more like a party. The audience enjoys and sings every lyric right as he does and dances like there’s no tomorrow. There’s  a tomorrow for me and I’ll be spending it with the man himself.

   The night is the beginning of my day. This is the best way to start a day in my opinion. The music continues and we get a dose of his story, his life. If this is how it is just watching, my mind was just racing about how much more I would learn. “I wanna bring somebody out right now, somebody that no one would ever expect would be here with me tonight. Come bless the stage for me baby girl.” My eyes are amazed I can’t wait to see who’s up next. I feel a nudge in my side. I look and his bodyguard gives me a nod and that lets me know that I’m the baby girl he’s talking about. I shake my head. “Let’s go baby girl.” I’ve performed before but just dancing in an auditorium for parents and teenagers and maybe a few people I had no idea about. The crowd screams but I’m sure they have no idea who I am. “Ladies and Gents, this is Tina and she gon rock wit me for a minute. Music please.” Oh no! Venus vs. Mars is my favorite song off his new album and I practiced a whole routine to it but I wasn’t prepared for this. “Shawtie get it in..” Here we go. I heard the music and I went with it. “Uh-Oh.” I didn’t know what I was doing or if it was good but everyone loved it. The song goes off and my movement stops instantly. “Who taught you how to move like that?” He reached over to embrace me and I was full with excitement . If the rest of my experience  was bad this was all I needed. We watched and listened for another two hours or so and then came the end something everyone regretted. 

  “Goodnight. Thanks for coming out and showing me love.” And with that the show was over. Time to head off to the next stop. He walked off the stage and there was immediate chaos, his assistant was automatically giving him the agenda. She spoke so fast I was wondering if he was really grasping everything, I couldn’t see his eyes behind the tinted ray ban sunglasses and his facial expression remained the same. We walked through a private exit which wasn’t so private since so many fans and paparazzi stood outside the door. “Here you go baby girl.” I was passed a pair of dark sunglasses. We stepped out and there was a million questions and  compliments thrown at him all at once. “Is this your new artist?” I pulled up my hood as I had seen so many celebrites do a million times on t.v. or in pictures. I was led to a black escalade along with Jay and his assistant who still continued talking. I looked over at him I felt his eyes peering into the side of my face and turned to see that I was right. A private smile was shared and I knew what our minds were both thinking. Why won't she just shut up? An inside joke if you will is what I called it. He understood me and I in return understood him. 

SENIOR-ITIAS (If that's how you even spell it..)

Often Senior-itas comes in the middle of the school year. It's only the beginning and I'm already sick of it. The pressure to do SAT's, shoot another essay out your ass, join different groups it looks great on your college applications, college applications, find a job, senior dues. ARGGGGGGGGGh, when the hell will it be over and done with. Now I understand why some kids drop out. It isn't the pressure of friends, its because its so hard to keep in tack. I feel as though my body is in school but my mind isn't, my grades show different though at least. I'm so tired and stressed out and there's only one result of that and it's a serious burn out. I can't take it anymore. I can't strive to live up to everyone's complex expectations of me. "Kerstina your such a great student, with drive and an unexplainable potential, keep it up." I hate hearing that, there's no room for mistakes. When I begin to fail I go crazy and I can't explain it at all. My whole junior year was full of 60s and 70s and a few 80s and 90s, I went from being ranked number 5 in my class to probably 20 or something. Why you ask? Well it's because I'm not someone that deals with pressure to well. I have to live up to this standard that I have no control over, something else that pushes me is being the first of my parents children to go to college and trying to provide a better tomorrow for my family. Is that to much for a seventeen year old to be thinking about? I believe so, I can't even explain a 75 anymore, I can't even explain it. There's noone who listens because there's noone that cares. When I try to let people know what's going on in my head they brush it off with, "Don't worry it's just Senior-itias." MANNNNNNNN fuck senior-itias, step into reality people, listen to me. CAN ANYONE HEAR ME????

ME & MY BOOTS #1

Today was another rainy day. And even with the rain it wasn't a bad day. Want to know why? Well its because my feet were so nice and warm. You know when you have on boots or Uggs and your feet still get soaked or even a little wet. These boots are so durable, my feet weren't cold or wet. I paid 150$ for my Uggs and I'm not bashing them because they are very warm and cozy but I wish that it was like worth it. Yeah we all know that suede isn't suppose to be worn in the rain but I have waterproof spray for them and they still get messed up. What kind of deal is that? I don't know but I'm in love with my durable warm, water-proof, and cozy boots. In love with em.=)

BLASTIN KID CUDI FOUND DIS PIC AND I LOVED IT

FIRST CHECK I'M COPPiN DESE I'M IN LOVE

URBAN OUTFITTERS SALES RACK!!

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RAINY MELLOW NIGHT

Tonight is one of those real mellow nights. Turn the t.v. off, turn the radio down and let the slow jams come through your speakers in a real low tone. The rain is so soothing to me for some reason. I feel some sense of relaxation when the rain falls and I lay in bed. Like tonight is going to be a good night and my dreams are going to be calming and very soothing just because that's what the rain does. Rainy nights are those nights when you realize that you wish there was someone else here with you. Just to add a little more comfort and a little more warmth. The night is so calming makes me want to just lay here in silence, in the dark just so that I can finally think clearly.

(Seems like I lose one follower on the same day that I gain a follower on twitter everyday. That's kind of annoying to me like really. But oh well.)

I'm going back to my clear thoughts and relaxation seems like if I don't now I won't ever. Hope your nights are as peaceful as mines. MUAHZzz!!

You know how they do those can't get enuff things this is my version

FOREVER 21 JACKET 34$..Great Buy!!!

JEESH!!!

Oh wow 11 Followers its not alot but its good enough. Thankz peeps.
Anywhooooo this week has been real hectic for me. On monday I went to Mandees filled out an application and got a call back Wednesday for the interview on Thursday. On Wednesday I got one of the greatest INTERNSHIP ASSIGNMENTS EVER!!! Choosing one of my favorite items and writing about my experience wearing it in different weathers,times of day, and such. I love doing this assignment because it gives me a chance to express how I was feeling in the boots on a different day. Other than that I went to school late all week and ooh at the mall surprisingly I got this boys AIM and I was the one to make the move. There's a first for everything and that was definitely a first. They have a new ForeverXXI(21) in KingzPlaza mall and its to die for. OMG. I love it and wished I could work there but not everything we wish for comes true. I am hunting though really hard and I'm hoping to get a second call back from Mandees cause I would LOOVE working there. Hit me up on Twitter.com/LuvTinaRenee. (22 followers.YAY!)LOL!!

WEBSURFER

Yesss call me an addict but i can't get enough. I have a myspace, facebook,twitter,blog,and I'm a member of many other websites. I visit google at least twenty million times a day and for no reason sometimes. Oh yeah and I love the gossip blogs like mediatakeout is one of my favorites. I shop online before I hit stores but sometimes there's some genius from my madness. Visit a cool photography blog called PrupFiction; http://www.poppapurp.blogspot.com/. And there was some real intresting pics. It's so cool to actually see that there are so many talented people and this guy is def talented. One of my new fav blogs to follow.!:-)

I LOVE IT WHEN IT RAINS

ONLY WHEN I'M INDOORS
Jeez Louise the rain was so ridiculous today. Gosh and it couldn't be worst, I thought I was going to turn into a ice sculpture on Graham Ave. After standing in front of the pizza shop with my best friend Crystal we started asking random people if we could borrow their umbrellas. One guy that I refer to as John Doe was kind enough to see two damsels in distress and walk all the way to his car and get us a nice large umbrella. You know those umbrellas that can hold 4 people under it. It was so perfect with keeping us out of the rain but then we had to deal with the awful winds. It's always colder in Williamsburg compared to Flatbush because it's closer to the water. But anyway it was horrible. I was pissed off in school today because I received four...I repeat FOUR in danger of failing letters. Thank God they aren't for anything major. Missed a test for Spanish (we only have had 1), a missed assignment from Global Economics, Phys Ed (i have it first period and I'm not a sweat suit wearing kind of person), oh and college prep (because I laugh uncontrollably at everything my friends say). But yeah nothing crazy that I won't be able to make up. That's why I wasn't completely pissed off. He I guess it's called being mature. Can't wait for the Big Apple College Fair tomorrow. OH AND Teri Agins (fashion journalist "The Wall Street Journal) replied to my email and wants to have a chat over the phone. I couldn't be more excited about it. Well I'm going to get back to the trillion essays that I have to write (only 2) and reading. Toodles!!!

twitter.com/luvtinarenee

Yesterday I joined twitter, only 7 followers but hey its only my second day. Today I visited a museum in Harlem with my mentor Kenya Robinson. We were there to complete the layouts for a couple of print designs that she's completing. She's doing this project which includes the KKK and one of the head garments for the KKK costume was actually designed. There were ruffles added as if he wanted to look good and terrorize people's lives at the same time. It was unbelievable. Then there was a piece that I fell in love with, oMGee. It's called "The Tree Of Life" and was created by Makonde. I was drawn to it right away. If anyone ever gets a chance you must visit Schomburg Center for Research in Black Culture. I wish I was able to actually go on a tour but I will defaintly be making an appointment to visit again someday. Well I must get to my VOGUE and TWITTER. LOL!! Hope everyone had a day as wonderful as mines.

Photography By Che

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LISTEN TO HER SHE SPEAKS

Have you ever closed your eyes and opened your ears. I remember the warm summer nights.
CLOSE YOUR EYES LISTEN TO BROOKLYN SHE SPEAKS. Let her blow a kiss and hope it lands on your cheek. She's only mean sometimes but she can't help it, it's because of the things she's seen. All the blood she's let fall on her hands. She loves though and that's because she's loved. Listen to her closely because she only whispering.

"I cherish those moments, the moments where I hear laughter. I hear the young boys cracking on the young girls. I hear the old heads trying to grab the attention of those young girls that look older than their age. The young boys try it too but some girls just roll their eyes. I've seen it happen and I laugh each and everytime.
I've seen it when the single mother has that one moment to herself the time when her children are asleep dreaming. I've seen that smile fade and tears appear, I've cried with her for she has struggles. I compare with her, I've struggled, I cry.
I watch the dealer give that women her next hit, she feens for it and he feens for it too. The money calls him, yeah money talks too. I see the guy that joins her how they compare, they share love but the love is for each other, they compare because of the drug. They no longer have to worry there gone now into another dimension another place where none of the b.s. exist. She smiles, he smiles their lifted their happy, but only for that moment. Back to the good times, do you remember those times? The family cookout in the park, that Sunday when your daughter showed everyone she could dance, yeah she was only two then but she's twenty now, she hasn't given up on you but she's decided to try and be the opposite of you.
She searches for you and crys because she can't find you. She's happy in the day but at night she cries. She has two kids and at night she cries, she cries because she wishes you were there to help her, she wishes you and daddy could know who her kids were, she wish she hadn't met the bum that got her knocked up even though her children are her everything. She wishes you were there. She wishes she could go back to being two years old.
Here's her message to you 'I love you and I hope where ever you and poppy are you know I'm here always and forever.'
See it's important to listen to me and remember I never sleep I watch over you and make sure that you survive in these mean streets. Your going to make it out though for you, your husband, child and her children your going to make it, the both of you will."

Get to know Tina Renee

My name Tina Renee (Combination of my nickname and middle name). I am a Jersey girl turned Brooklyn chick. How you may ask? Well I was born in Jersey but moved to Brooklyn at the age of 4, and ever since this is where I've been. I love it in New York. On some days even if its not to shop, go to the movies, out to eat but just to walk and enjoy the lights. New York is the city that never sleeps and believe it or not its true. I've been out at 3or 4 in the morning and there's always lights and people. Whether its a bunch of girls coming from a party, corner boys, crackheads, the cops, youngins or someone homeless there's always someone around. People in other states often mention the DANGERS OF BROOKLYN, walking through an alley and getting mugged or murdered. For some strange reason I feel safe. Not 100% safe but 95% at least. (Don't be too afraid.) Growing up in New York your always living in the fast lane. Teenagers here become adults faster than a child in a secluded environment. There is a wide variety of situations that we go through where we have to grow up. Everyone has there own struggles and in life we all jump over hurdles but the way a Brooklyn child goes through it in my opinion is twenty million times worst than a child living somewhere like Texas or Virgina or something.
Being the person I am there is a whole lot that comes with my personality. I'm a Virgo which means I am creative, organized, opinionated, not afraid to speak my mind, understanding, love to argue, a perfectionist, dedicated, loyal and caring. Using my creative and opinionated section I didn't decide that my future wouldn't include me being some kind of superstar singer or actress but a fashion journalist. I decided to combine two of my passions. I could say that I want to be a fashion designer but I'm not dedicated to deciding what I want to see people wear. I love helping people decide what to wear, and helping style people according to what they like and what fits them best. But writing always comes first, I've been writing short stories ever since I was maybe seven and even though they weren't these life changing stories they always meant something. Being passionate about doing something makes it that much easier to be dedicated.
In closing thank you to the eight followers that I have now and the future followers that I will have. Kisses to all.TiNA RENEÈ

Can Never Go Wrong With Louis Vuitton

LV FALL 2OO9

Stella McCartney-Fall 2009

MY FAVZ.

Chloe Fall 2009